Good news…

Hey, GOOD NEWS… I still have a heart!

Well… bad news in that it’s taken a small hit and aches a wee bit but GOOD NEWS… I still have a heart!

Not that long ago… I felt nothing but empty. I didn’t think I had it in me to attach myself to another man. I was resigned to the fact that I’d be happy alone.

And that was fine.

Then, things began to change. I met a boy one night who got me thinking that maybe, just maybe, I could “go there” again. Time went on and I gained more confidence… no one really catching my eye or making me want to pursue anything more than friendship but I wasn’t totally opposed to the idea the way I had been.

And then, someone made me take a second look. Said all the right things. Had me knocking down walls and it was nice to let go. But it’s done.

Over before it even started but not before I felt a slight twinge of something I hadn’t felt in years.

And that’s a good thing because I realize I can… under the right circumstances and the right timing… feel again.

It’s a tough world out there… putting yourself on the line. Being judged and trying to find a common ground without totally making an ass of yourself but the reality is… no one wants to be alone. Not even me.

With each person I meet… each step I take… it moves me in the right direction even if, every now and then, it hurts just a little.

But I’m grateful… just to feel again.

 

6 Replies to “Good news…”

  1. I am constantly amazed by you. You inspire me. I follow your blog because you make me feel normal and help me move on after my divorce. You do it with such grace and wisdom. I can’t wait to see how the rest of your story plays out. The men out there are fools for not scooping you up by now but now that you’re open to it, they’ll find you! Thanks for sharing – as always – your beautiful mind.

  2. I understand completely. I was in the exact same place years ago . I know for a fact that it can and does happen when it’s least expected. !!!!

  3. Guys never know what’s right in front of them! They all say they’re searching for “the one” but when the most amazing woman is in front of them, they just can’t see it. I pity the fool who didn’t see how awesome you are.

  4. HA! In fairness to this fellow… I was the problem! I’m just happy that my life is moving forward. I’ll find the perfect person for me when the time is right. More than likely, he’ll find me first!