Hey, GOOD NEWS… I still have a heart!
Well… bad news in that it’s taken a small hit and aches a wee bit but GOOD NEWS… I still have a heart!
Not that long ago… I felt nothing but empty. I didn’t think I had it in me to attach myself to another man. I was resigned to the fact that I’d be happy alone.
And that was fine.
Then, things began to change. I met a boy one night who got me thinking that maybe, just maybe, I could “go there” again. Time went on and I gained more confidence… no one really catching my eye or making me want to pursue anything more than friendship but I wasn’t totally opposed to the idea the way I had been.
And then, someone made me take a second look. Said all the right things. Had me knocking down walls and it was nice to let go. But it’s done.
Over before it even started but not before I felt a slight twinge of something I hadn’t felt in years.
And that’s a good thing because I realize I can… under the right circumstances and the right timing… feel again.
It’s a tough world out there… putting yourself on the line. Being judged and trying to find a common ground without totally making an ass of yourself but the reality is… no one wants to be alone. Not even me.
With each person I meet… each step I take… it moves me in the right direction even if, every now and then, it hurts just a little.
But I’m grateful… just to feel again.